“Two words. Three vowels. Four consonants. Seven letters. It can either cut you open to the core and leave you in ungodly pain or it can free your soul and lift a tremendous weight off you shoulders. The phrase is: It's over.” ― Maggi Richard
To My (ex)Love,
|"Goodbye, my looooooooooove........"|
The time has come. I'm making it official: we are over.
This may come as a shock since less than a month ago we were spending nearly every day together. We were side by side on top of mountains, in rivers and hot springs, at various restaurants and bars. You accompanied me to family gatherings, and you were definitely at my goodbye party before I flew back to Korea. You've been with me during the good times and the bad. If I was sad, angry, lonely, bored—you were there to put a bandaid on my discomfort. I understand you might be reeling from the news. So let me explain.
First off, you drain my bank account like a booby-licious gold-digger. Money I need for other things somehow gets spent on you. I'm the sailor and you're the Siren—I am defenseless against your call. It stops now. I am not your sugar momma, and I refuse to keep spending money on you. Because you make me poor, we are over.
I know it's common in relationships for habits to shift. You're comfortable together; you enjoy eating delicious meals and yummy desserts; you watch a few more movies and exercise a bit less. However, your influence on my habits is over the line. Somehow you convince me to skip the gym, to watch a bit more tv, to order a pizza or buy another ice cream. Your presence is laced with salt/fat/sugar cravings. Around you, my self-discipline is depleted. More junk food and less lifting-heavy-stuff makes me bummed out, broken out, and chubbed out. Because you mess up my healthy routines, we are over.
We are over, but that doesn't mean I don't miss you. I think about you a lot. Sometimes daily. When I'm out with friends, I'm longing to feel you in my hand, to taste you on my lips. If we weren't broken up, I could almost guarantee you'd be getting drunk texts from me, asking you if you want to come over and "talk".
But, here's the thing. As time goes on, I'm thinking of you less and less. I'm realizing that life isn't as hard without you as it seemed a few weeks ago. I'm sure I'll still think about you and the good times we had. Even so, I know I'm better off without you, at least for now. Maybe in the future, if I've grown a little and you can be less needy, we could try this thing again. Until then, my boozy babe, be well.